You have a faith on existence of God but no need to faith on your existence. Because you know that you are, even negating existence of self means you already exist ....is int !
We are never alone because we are full of all the memories. just live with self as we actually are so meditate nicely
We are so close, clinched or attached with our memories pictures and thoughts. We will have some comfortable distance from these things. Possible through knowledge only.
We afraid from present moments. That's why we try to get satisfaction from imaginary world. And in meditation we try to make a lot of unnecessary imaginations.
Yoga Guru from Delhi